Never Alone. July 31, 2015.

July 31, 2015.

It's boiling hot lava hot here. Like I never thought I'd come to Washington to say, "Send me back to California where it's 80 degrees!" I don't even know how people function in this weather and I think that the swollen parts of my face are rebelling against the heat by doubling in size. It's not fun you guys, there is a reason I didn't move to Africa! But that's enough complaining because I am happy to be here and in my (once again) adorable little apartment. 

I'm sitting here gazing over the computer screen at Garrett and Reagan (my roommate) is talking about life. What a beautiful scene. Here we each come from different parts of the country, we have different backgrounds, we have different career goals, we are different ages, yet we have this bond and unity in our mutual belief in Christ. I have spent the afternoon in authentic fellowship with these guys, Miranda, and Rod,being transparent about our summer and lives. This is what being intentional looks like. These lovely people came over to spend quality time with me and they have spent the afternoon just talking and being in community. We weren't all on our phones texting, checking social media, we aren't looking at our watch constantly wondering what we are missing or where we should be. If you're with people right now, close your computer, get of your phone, pause reading this blog, look up, ask them a question, anything at all, engage in a conversation with them and take the time to appreciate that you have them and you aren't alone. 

I feel so sad hearing about people that are alone. I am constantly hearing at the doctor's office, "Oh you are so lucky that you have so much support, people come in here all the time by themselves." How sad is that!? I guarantee you every person that walks this alone has at least 1 person that could have been by their side. Don't ever let someone go through their trial alone you guys, like I said yesterday, be there. Don't let insecurities hold you back! Take a chance outside of your comfort zone.

That being said I was convicted yesterday. I realized that I have been shifting my dependence from God to community. Don't get me wrong, I stand by the message in the blog yesterday! I think community is extremely important, BUT people will fail you. People aren't perfect and you cannot hold them on a pedestal. I think that I expected too much from people instead of depending on God for comfort and peace. God gave us community for sure and we should be seeking that and helping each other, but God is perfect. He will never fail us, He will be with us wherever we go and in whatever season we are in. He is the one we need to seek for comfort and help, as long as we have Him we should never feel alone. 

No huge update. The Doctors think they can do a fine needle biopsy on the node in my stomach which means another needle shoved into my stomach, not exactly excited but hey at least they'll have answers!